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Profile. The names Hang. I'm the type of girl that loves running around in the rain without caring that I'm going to get sick. I sit on the ground anywhere, and anytime I want. I like green and purple skittles. I love to try on clothes but not always buy it. I smile even though I'm sad, cos I hate the feeling of being sad. I'm the type of person that would rather get hurt by the truth then be happy with a lie. I'm a pretty nice person, but if you get on my bad side, i wont talk to you.(: FORMSPRING. Rewind. July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 November 2010 My wants. Polaroid camera New phone New clothes New earrings New shoes Charm bracelet Gloves that go up to my elbows School socks Footprints |
Date: Saturday, October 31, 2009
Title: :) Had a nice conversation with the lover today. It was just like talking about stuff, like the past, future and stuff like that. It was beautiful, because it went on for a while. We haven't had one of them conversations for a while. (: Date:
Title: /sigh. I'm tired of trying to fit in, trying to not be myself completely just so maybe you'd like me, and accept me. Yeah you may accept me, but do you like me? I'm tired of trying. Urgh. You know what annoys me? Just cos I'm more hyper then a lot of people, just cos i jump around a lot and laugh a lot and talk a lot, i'm weird? What the heck man. Only cos I'm happy, I'm weird. Okay, whatever. Date: Thursday, October 29, 2009
Title: :) Okay, so here is the story of today. Err I woke up at 10:30, went onto the computer, and me, brother, and Jay went to go to the bay, on the way we picked up Alysha & Binh. Urm, we went to the bay and then went to maccas, but me and alysha were craving wedges, so we went to go find a place that sold wedges, took us a while. Well yeah, after that we ate icecream then went home. I got dropped off at tmc cos since i was going Jandarys house anyway, i went home with her. Bec came to pick us up around 4:40 and we went to this dance class thing, 150dance. Yeah, it was alright. I found it pretty hard and confusing. D: After that we went to latenight at Elizabeth, it wasnt far from the dance place so we just walked. But the weather was terrible so it was a bit of torture. So yeah, we went to Elizabeth around 6, and we shopped around for a bit. I didn't buy much, but bec and jandary bought a lot. I bought underwear, it was only $5 from cotton on body, but it was cute.(: They have plenty of cute and cheap stuff there. I love it! :D I saw Aj there at about 7:30 and like he ran up to me and gave me a big hug. :D Then talked to him for a bit while the girls went to tunza fun, then Kayli and Jeff came and Kayli asked if i wanted to walk with her somewhere but then i'm like okay then. :) During that time Jeff went for a smoke. Hmm. They met up with us not long after, and then came Jandary and Bec. Then we stuck around for a bit at one spot playing the circle came, but then we decided to go home. Aj went about 5 minutes before us and he gave me a loooonnnggg hug and a kiss, and when he ran off he yelled out i love you, and im like naw. :D :D So yeah, I'm in a pretty good mood, Today was a pretty good day. :) Tomorrow is going to be so hot. gosh. Date:
Title: :) I didnt call him last night. /sigh. I wanted to, but didnt. Hmm, yesterday brother, dinh and i went to go eat ab's at like 11. After that we went to the pines with tanna, andrew, danny, timmy, vanna and moonie, and some other chick. Yeah. Had a heaps shit day yesterday, so i'm hoping today would be good. Even though the weather is horrible! I'm not going to school today, too hot so i ceeb'ed. :D Date: Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Title: shit day. Had such a crap day today. Like seriously. It was massively boring. Everyone was on excursions and crap, so there weren't many of us. What made it worse was the awful weather, urgh. I cut myself in food and textiles today, on the sewing machine, but I have no idea how. Like it happened 3 times, for all the same reasons, but i still couldnt figure our how it happened. It happens when i try to bring the presser foot up, and I get cut somehow. And I tried to check what it was, but there wasnt anything. It's weird, cos I've never cut myself on a sewing machine before, and today it happened 3 times? Point is, today was so crap. Date:
Title: AHAHA So today after school me and Nga weer standing near this year eight which I have never seen before until during that day, and then I saw him after school. Well yeah, I think his name is Jamal? Well he was sitting on the floor and I said hi, and he totally ignored me. Then me and Nga were like questioning him, like we asked if he was new, he said no. And then Nga was like "where are you from" hes like "australia" and shes like "no, like where are you from" and hes like "australia" and im like "whats your nationality" hes like "australia" and then nga is like "are you asian?" hes like "yeah" and then shes like, "oh really? what kind?" and hes like "vietnam" and me and nga were just like O_O er okay. and then yeah he was like "are you fucking kidding, do i look asain!?" AHAHAHAH it was so funny. like we were'nt expecting him to like swear and shizz. but yeah, it was a be there moment. It was my highlight of the day. AAHAHA Date:
Title: promise? "dont leave me" he said. "i wont" she replied "promise?" he said "i promise. promise you wont leave me." she said "i promise" he said Date:
Title: :( I just don't fit in with you people anymore, I don't think I ever did. I think I just had fun with yous, so I joined. But truth is, I don't fit in with you people, I don't know what to talk about with you people. I give up on trying to even make conversation with you. Date: Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Title: blah. Whenever a girl says 'whatever' its means eff you. WELL YOU KNOW WHAT? Whatever. :D Date: Monday, October 26, 2009
Title: woopie. Okay, no more depressing-ness from now on. Okay? :D Date:
Title: hmm. Maybe you should get the fuck over it and move on with your life instead of interfering with mine. I dont give a fuck about what you think, you dont know me, dont judge me. Date: Sunday, October 25, 2009
Title: fuck this. Hating life at the moment. Not my life, but life overall. Make sense? Yes? Well yeah. I'm just kinda angry. Yeah, cool. Thanks. bye. Date: Saturday, October 24, 2009
Title: :( Why do I feel like I got no one to talk to anymore? Like, I know I've got people that I can talk to, but like, I just don't do it. Like, I still let things out once in a while, but never like a lot. I haven't had a dnm for ages now. I want one, but it never happens. Gosh, I think I need one. I feel like I'm bottling things up, but then I'm not doing that, I dont think. ERGH. I dunno. Date: Thursday, October 22, 2009
Title: :) Lalalala. Had a pretty awesome day. :D Full of awesomeness unlike some other days. But yeah, pretty awesome. Youth Expo tomorrow, and Emersons party, tomorrow should be good. Hopefully. Date: Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Title: :( Its getting really hard. I don't want you carrying this, I want to help out, but I cant. I want to, for you. But I cant. I want you to be happy, all the time, but you're not. I'm a failure at life. I'm a failure at being a friend. I'm a failure at being a girlfriend. I'm even a failure at being apart of my family. I just fail. I'm giving up. Date:
Title: woopie. Today has been a pretty okay day I guess. Love making moaning noises with Nga, ha. Massive turn off. -.- OH YEAH, YEAH LIKE THAT YEAH. mm yeah, mm yeah. :L Date: Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Title: its not about being read, its about being written. Date:
Title: /sigh Is this how our relationship is going to be the whole time we're together? I mean seriously. I want to spend my life with you and you want to spend your life with me. But I really don't want to if this is the case. I hope this is just a "phase" that relationships go through, I really hope so. I can't take it everyday for the rest of my life. I can handle it now, but I don't know if I can later. It's funny how you think I don't care about us. When "us" is the most important thing to me. When I stay silent and I have nothing to say, have you ever thought that it's because I'm still processing everything you say? Maybe it's me thinking about our future and how afraid I am. I don't know what goes around in my head when we're arguing, so I say nothing. But most of the time it's thinking about the things you say, and the things you hate. I think about it, I think about how I can change it, but most of the time you don't notice anyway. You think I'm still the same girl from the beginning of 2008, but I'm not, I am a completely different girl, for better and worse. You changed me. You think just cos I don't make a dramatic change as quick as possible, I'm still the same. I slowly change, sorry if it's not fast enough for you. I find it hard to say these things to you when I'm talking to you because when I'm talking to you, all these thoughts disappear. It's frustrating cos I do want to tell you. You have no idea how much I am hurting inside. Date: Monday, October 19, 2009
Title:   I find these funny. I don't even talk to them much. /sigh. I feel sad. :( Date:
Title: UGH You frustrate me. :) Date:
Title: :D Had a pretty good day today. It was heaps hot though. :( Lol, sarcasm has really annoyed me lately. I dont know why, it just has. So many people doing it, it annoys me more when its not necessary, like seriously. Point is, had a good lunch with the girls today, talking about showers and stuff. ;D Ham was good the first time, disgusting the second. Weeeeee. Date: Sunday, October 18, 2009
Title: weewee. I want to ask you, but I'm afraid. I shall ask you today though. :) Hopefully it doesn't end in drama yeah? Today should be a good day. This weekend had been alright, been pretty full so yeah. :) Date: Saturday, October 17, 2009
Title: going out for Londons birthday today! should be good. :) Date:
Title:  I absolutely love these girls. I love talking to them. Latoya says we talk about the weirdest things. But even if the conversation is weird, its good. Yknow? These girls are absolutely amazing.<3 Date:
Title: hrmm. Mistakes are the portals of discovery but only if we learn from them. It's better to ask some of the questions then to know all of the answers. Perfection isn't an option for us, perfection is a death of the mind and soul. We're here to learn and change, and that means making mistakes. Date: Friday, October 16, 2009
Title: :) I am currently doing my science homework, might do history after, then I have childstudies and food and textiles. And then I'm done. Woo. I got this science assignment sometime this week, due next friday, so its quite surprising I'm starting now. But, I wanna be a good girl. (A) Yeah, I'm drinking monster. :) Date:
Title: true. Whenever a girl says 'whatever' its means eff you. LOL. I'm pretty sure that's true, never realized it. HA. Date:
Title: UGH You frustrate me. :( Date:
Title: =o I just realized the other day that I use to be really fake. Lol. Not as in bitchy, talking behind your back fake, but not myself fake. Yknow? Like if someone thought something was weird, and I did it, I wouldnt be like "yeah I do that". If it were now, I wouldnt be afraid to say I do it. Like I remember when someone said something about a girl not brushing her hair in the morning and they found it gross. And I didn't do it either, cos my hairs not that bad in the morning so no point, but point is I was too afraid to say that I did that, I was afraid to be myself. Even though I know if I'm myself I can be annoying an all, but its better then being fake right? After all, I hate fakes. :D Date:
Title: :( Ouch, that kind of hurt. Date: Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Title: shalalala. When I say whats up you say whats happenin. WHATS UP? LOL. I'm in a pretty goooooooooood mood. I love God. woooooo. :) Date: Monday, October 12, 2009
Title: :( I dislike school. Date: Sunday, October 11, 2009
Title: grr WHATEVER THEN! :( Date:
Title: 4:11 AM. Yeah, pulling an all nighter. I'm at Alysha's house staying up with her and her cousins. The wedding was pretty good. (: Yeah, her cousins are playing CS. Alyshas laying in bed, and I'm here, thinking of what i can do on the comp. Yeah, anyway, dont know what to blog about so I cbf. bye. Date: Saturday, October 10, 2009
Title: busy day. I hate it how you have so many things to go to in one day and you cant make all of them. Today I got invited to ice skating, friends birthday, remedy, YFC chapter assembly, shopping with mother and helping out alysha with her brothers wedding. I ended up going to remedy and helping Alysha out. I had fun at Alyshas, playing 13, bullshit and this other slapping game thing. At remedy I was pretty bored, I was only going their for Kayli not to be bored but she didn't end up coming. -.- But yeah. I ate fried chicken at Alyshas, gosh I miss fried chicken, havent had it in ages. Tomorrow I'm going to the wedding. Yay, I'm pumped. Date: Thursday, October 8, 2009
Title: =\ I just figured out how selfish you are. But I don't want to bring that up because I don't want to argue anymore. Date: Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Title: :) Had a good time at Bec's. I love being with them girls, they get my mind off things, they are like my escape from things. We started off watching "PS I love you" then 19-20minutes through the movie we changed it to a scary movie "Dead Silent" or something. Makes me kind of paranoid to look into the darkness, HA. But I'm not scared, just paranoid. x] We were all using sarcasm in the movie and Jandarys like "everyone and their sarcasm" and yeah, that moment was pretty funny. I just kept laughing. Yeah, point is, it was good. (: Date:
Title: /giggle. http://www.happy.com.au It still makes me smile/happy. Date:
Title: does the good outweigh the bad. (8) Why yes, yes it does. Date:
Title: /sigh  Date:
Title: /sigh I don't want you talking to her again. You are sucha liar, saying you don't talk to her, and you hate her. ALL EFFING LIES. yeah whatever. i dont give a shit anymore. go do whatever. Date:
Title: (: Angela said something to me at YFC camp which made me smile. She said I was one of the strongest people she knew. It made me feel pretty happy she said that. But truth is, I don't think I'm strong, I'm pretty weak. I break down, stumble down and get hurt pretty easily. Then I get back up and it happens all over again. Date:
Title: :| Still not very happy at the moment, but I feel better. Date:
Title: FUCK. I don't fucking know how you can still ask me whats wrong with me when obviously YOU FUCKING KNOW! WHY IS EVERYTHING I DO WRONG? WHY? I ASK YOU AND YOU DONT TELL ME, I DONT ASK YOU AND YOU GET UPSET. WHAT THE EFF IS YOUR PROBLEM. ARGH. HAD SUCH A GOOD DAY AND YOU JUST HAVE TO GO AND RUIN IN WITH YOUR FUCKING MOODINESS. FUCK SAKES. NGSDUIHUIJNKFSDIVOXHNKTRDFNK So annoyed. Date:
Title: gndfijrijtrij I am annoyed with this crap. Fuck -.- EVERYTHING I DO IS WRONG ISNT IT. FUCK SAKES! Date: Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Title: :D Had a pretty good day today. Went to Torrens River with Altair and went paddle boating, it was nice and relaxing for a while. Was heaps scared that I was going to hit the ducks and swans though. And then later on we went to rundle and bumped into some of the yfc-ers, so we hung out with them. They ended up going to the Torrens river as well so we went again. Thea & Ben are so cute! :D Me, Avery, Jannifer, AJ + Lorie were like singing heaps loud and like people would just walk past staring at us, it was pretty fun.(: OH TODAYS LIE TO ME EPISODE WAS GOOOOOOD. :D I liked it very much. I took some pictures today. Heres Thea and Ben. (:    Me and AJ on the paddle boats.    Date:
Title: <3 and after everything we go through, I'll be loving you still in the end.  Date:
Title: nga? birthday: march 2-? :D current location: brothers room. righty or lefty: lefty ftw. thoughts first waking up: What time is it? mcdonalds or burger king: mcdonalds chocolate or vanilla: chocolate what were you doing 5 minutes ago: stuff. i love: him. i feel: crap. i hate: getting hurt. i need: him. i want: him to be happy. last person you argued with: him. favorite cheese: stringers. allergic to: nothing. ever thrown up in a car: yeah, but like i had a bucket with me? wait, i dunno if i vomited...cant remember, but i remember bringing a bucket with me cos i might've vomited? shampoo first or wash body first: Shampoo pen or pencil: Pen perfect time to wake up: 12pm :D perfect time to go to bed: anytime im tired i guess. :) Date: Monday, October 5, 2009
Title: PRAISE GOD. Yfc camp was pretty good, not heaps good like last time but pretty good. Dear mother, dear mother, you're playing my bones. (8) ITS A HEAPS GOOD STORY! :D Kathleen from Canberra told us it. LOL @ gaaaarrrrryyyyy. He's a heaps good drummer. He won variety night and like Ralph ruined it for him like kanye style. :) I grew closer to God in this camp, like I started losing that faith just a bit but this camp helped me regain it. I cried during both worships. Happy tears of course. IKAW ALAPOHE! LOL. /sigh. Bloody Ralph and KL made me waste my breath on asking everyone. :( Yeah a lot happened at camp but like I'm not really in the best mood right now so i cant think of anything. Yeah, I miss blogging. Sucks how I don't feel like it when I have the chance to. Does the good outweigh the bad? (8) Yeah my mood got ruined while writing this blog. THANKS.  |